One thing I've learned in the 6 months since I've returned to work - I'm not yet transitioned back into the routine now that I'm a mom. I'm actually (gulp) struggling with it.
That's hard for me to admit. I don't struggle with things like this. I'm hard-working and determined. I figure things out. I like working in a fast-paced environment, and I generally always know where I'm headed and what to do.
It means something so much different to manage home life with Mark and Milo and a career. For the first time, work and home life really seem at opposite ends of the ring. And I'm in the middle getting beat up. Another way I can explain is that it doesn't feel natural to work anything other than a 9-5 kind of job and have a family. I suppose if I had a 9-5 job, it would still be hard too. Working in consulting demands so much of my time and energy that there's not enough left at the end of the day.
So I've vowed to my family that I'm starting over again. I have proven to myself that I can't just work "80%" or some other arbitrary number. That doesn't work, and it's not my style. My plan is to make better choices with my time...feed my soul more, stay in touch with family given the physical distance and maintain some level of success at work. It's not ideal, but I don't want to look back on these years saying, "WOW. I was such a great consultant...but not a good mom."